Sunfield: Fare Thee Well

#Throwback—resignation letter 2023

I, Ezra Sullivan, have decided to leave my position, as Farm Director, at Sunfield Farm.

Good luck.

Ha! Nah, I’ll say more.

But I am going to treat you as community, and tell you my real story. Which might seem odd in this context, but I have some news to break on you. Waldorf education and Biodynamic agriculture were created to foster initiates. What is an initiate? A human being who has resolved to meet their humanity. To understand myself so that I can give myself in freedom.

Sunfield will be with me always. At Sunfield I reached the culmination of my task in young adulthood. Since eighteen years old I have had a mission: to become intimate, beyond conception, with nature. On these fields, pastures and forests I developed myself, and came to know many aspects and forces. I gave my activity to the animals, plants and soils who in kind, shared their wisdom with me.

Then, in the last year or so everything changed. In my personal life, I lost a love, and at Sunfield I faced a heightened opposition to what the nature spirits and I were aspiring to manifest. I felt a tide shifting, and then last summer I took a fortuitous trip to my childhood home. There, in ritual with a mentor, my ancestors began to speak. I realized that my mission was more in reaction to a wound than a true expression of my individuality.

By knowing the past, I began my future.

May we foster reverence for the struggle, as it is the medium from which inspiration can grow.

Blessings on your work!

Farmer Ezra